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| GOOD MORNING :)
I havent been updating much. Since the last time I blogged was last month hah. I've had many exams and other events that's happened. Last weekend I had a blast. A real nice fantastic time at a dance, I was invited by the guy I like. It was really sweet. even though I didnt understand the music, it was just fun dancing to it and having fun. I got to make a new friend and ate homemade tacos :] which was very very good.
This week so far has been so-so. I had 2 exams: one for Chem 1A and the other was for Physics 2A. It was alright, but for the finals, I have to really study and stop procastinating. Usually on fridays, I hang out and watch movies w/ the guy I like, but I have to take this class today and I wont be out until 4:30pm >.> which is like 6-8 hrs long.
I can't wait for tonight (: mannnnn yes a dance! I was invited by my friend Quynh a few weeks back, and I've also invited my friends too. I wish more could've gone, but most of them has plans already :/ I'm very glad that the guy I like is willing to go w/ me to this dance tonight. I heard the majority of the dance will be asian hahah since it is at De Anza College.
Well after the my class, I'm planning to go to the mall w/ my mom & my best friend to get makeup, shoes & a dress :) I'll see ya late!
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| GOOD MORNING :]
My Spring Break is almost oveerrr! :/ o-well, and have school next week starting Monday! well, at least I'll be on a break form tutoring my cousin next week. I'm glad I had a break from school, but now I gotta get crackin on my homework XD. Today is Friday, and I plan on going for a jog w/ a few friends or my usual running Friday crew. Afterwards, my bff Sylvia has invited me for lunch w/ her friend Jon. &&later tonight, I plan to do homework and study w/ Sylv!! Over the weekend will be the bomb, since Saturday I'll be chillin&shoppin w/ my mom :) something I wanted to do w/ my mom just recently. && on Sunday a lunch date w/ a good old friend Henry!! hopefully Vanessa will join us too. probably go out for a few hours on sunday, then I'll be back home during the afternoon or evening on Sunday and get ready for school :/
This past week was fun :) I went to the mall twice since SB started. I got to talk to Brownie&SD on the phone and got updated haha. O yah, and last weekend I got to hang out w/ Mona :) that was pretty sweet, since we both made chocolate cupcakes together! they were pretty yummy :D. I should post a picture somewhere for it haha. Well I'm going to go get ready for my run :] see ya late!
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| Hello.
Many things have happened since the last time I blogged. It's been freeing me in a way. I feel like I can be myself. I don't feel as trapped or cornered. Lately, I've been feeling a bit confused about this guy. I know there's a huge connection between us, physically and mutually through our minds. We may be total opposites, but it seems like we match. He needs time... didn't tell me specifically what the reasons are, but I understand, yet his actions do really confuse me. I'm sure he still feels attracted to me and the way he is around me, but other than that we don't hang out or chill like we used to.
I have a new goal: starting this upcoming Monday, no meat. I haven't planned or am unsure how long I'm planning to do it for. I was out last night buying groceries, a close friend, Ronald. I'm glad we're back to chilling and talking. He's been in and out of my life since high school. I bought yogurt (something to snack on) when I'm hungry, instead of junk foods. Getting back into shape and healthy is my goal. Since I'm on my SB, I plan on catching up on friends (visit SJSU), homework and just being busy to keep myself from getting all sad about the guy.
This morning, I already set up a run/ jog with a few friends. It's going to be at Grosbeck, near my house. There's only going to be a handful of us, since everyone else who usually goes running w/ us are tired or lazy or just plain busy. Actually, I have this running crew I do every Friday. It has become something of a regular thing now. Just this past Friday, we all went to Tutti Frutti, which is a really delicious frozen yogurt place!! This will be our regular spot to hit up after running :) Well I have to get ready since the time to meet up is at 9am. I'll blog when I have time. Cya
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| A Moment of Darkness
A day full of sun
Yet coldness surrounds us.
Darkened clouds engulf the skies
The Heavens are silently weeping...
Sad droplets of water fall...
Fall far down
to the core of Earth...
No joys are brought out
No light to bring us
The happiness we seek...
O' why is there no light?
Are the Heavens angry at us?
There are no words
To relieve the pain
Not a soul to depend on
No one can help...
We are left here
Until our hearts
Are consumed by darkness
And to die of loneliness
No one can help...
O' what tragedy...
Can there be no savior?
©Vivian Vu
Lately... I've been feeling as if there is no one to help me out... No one to hear me... I'm feeling suffocated. I can not breathe. Shouldn't life be full of surprises and happiness? I feel as if I've been left out. I can only depend on my self at these times. I miss so many things... but I can't reverse time... I can't stop time. I can only keep on going forward and try to do the best I can. I spend these moments in deep thought and sometimes get lost in a maze of confusion. Endlessly in circles and in my thoughts about where I am.. and who I am. I believe I can do things, I am me and no one can take that from me.
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| Hello! For the longest time, I had no access into this blog >.> since I had lost my pw, but everything is fine, since i got my old email up and running!!
It's been more than 2 years. And I can't believe the last time I blogged was when I was a senior in highschool. Well, that part of my life is over, and here I am WORLD, college. haha. Seriously, it's fun and better. I just need to still manage my time.
My things to do List:
1. finish my research paper
2. do some precal hwk
3. edit all my other english essays
My 2nd year of college, and I feel like I've change a little. I've experienced some gains and some losses. Mostly I feel soo out of place sometimes. I feel like I can't breathe, and I suffer from too much noise. The days when I used to just hang loose and be free to be me. But now.... it's unbearable. I can't do what I used to do. I feel lost sometimes... when I wanna cry out to my friends.. i see no one. I have lost many and gained a few. I feel confused and dazed on my bonds with certain people. My ties... my friendships.. are no more.
I have a relationship with my current boyfriend, and we've been together now for 9months. It's actually pretty amazing, how long we've kept it up. Theres been many things we've shared together, and I'm glad to have him by my side. Even though we constantly bicker and fight, we still love one another. And that's what matters the most. I'm happy with my bf... he satisfies my loneliness and is my happiness.. he is someone i go to when i am frustrated.
Constantly I feel like i'm being attacked everyday... by this force... and this force has taken everything away. I won't forgive.... i won't forget. I need to stay careful of where I tread. I need a place for me to escape, when this force comes at me again. I want peace... I want quiet. I want my life. I can wish and want for eternity.... but I won't be getting what I lost given back to me. My dignity.... my pride..... myself. Who I was....can never be whole.
Well I have to finish this essay for today's class. I will come back again.. :)
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